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September 2, 2009

Drowning

Filed under: Uncategorized — sashyjane @ 10:54 am

Do you ever get that feeling that you’re drowning in your own stress? That no matter how many things you check of your endless to-do list, it’s never enough? I have that feeling right now.  Work has been ridiculous, every night has been filled with obligations (I need to learn to stop feeling guilty about saying no,) my house is in shambles, I’ve been fighting a cold and Emily’s shower plans aren’t as nailed down as I’d like.  GASPING FOR AIR.

69291From here.

Organizing has been my stress reliever.  With Emily’s shower a week and a half away and the house in roommate transition, organizing has been not only necessary but welcome.  I’m terrified that people are going to come over and think my house looks like some kid right out of college lives there so I’ve been nesting like a fool and I don’t even have the time or funds to do it like I’d like! HUGE BREATH.

ocean-wallpaper-5From here

I want to hide my cell phone and cut off my internet for about 4-5 days so I can get my house and work load under control and not feel obligated to say yes to every invitation and function.  I need to not have one more thing piled on so I can get out from under this back-breaking load and access my situation.  I just need a break! And not the kind of break where you come back twice as stressed because you have so much to catch up on but the kind of break where you return refreshed and ready to tackle new projects.

n4938564_43735550_188Photo of Switzerland from here.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m thankful for my friends and all of the activities going on in my life, I just need to not feel obligated to participate in everything all the time.  I was never that girl in college who would say “I can’t. I have to study.” I was the one who would go to the event/dinner/etc and then have a panic attack wondering how I was going to get my huge project done.  When will I learn that saying no might disappoint people for a minute but in the end makes me a better, happier, more attentive friend/employee/daughter/sister? When will I learn that if I don’t want to hang out or go to dinner or attend a party, I can just say so? I don’t have to screen phone calls and disappear for a week, I don’t have to say yes just because I feel guilty.  I CAN SAY NO!

c40747-14From here.

Wow… sorry about that… I didn’t mean to get all Dr. Phil on you.  While I figure out how to pull myself out of this stress hole, would you mind leaving me a little encouragement? Is that too much to ask? Have you even gotten to the bottom of this post?  Thanks for reading, that makes me feel a lot better already.  Hopefully I’ll have something pretty or fun to write about soon.  Until then… these lists by Martha have been delightful.  I printed off the one about organizing your linen closet and that’s going to be my treat to myself tonight when I get back from another obligation I probably shouldn’t have said yes to.

gt03octmsl_shelves_xlFrom here.

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5 Comments »

  1. SJ, you fabulous creature. I just want to say that I love you and admire your courage. Thank you for putting into words what i’ve been feeling for the past 5 months (at least). And your right, it is okay to say no. People prefer honesty over an obligated attendance.

    Comment by Rhende — September 2, 2009 @ 12:57 pm

  2. Diva,

    You are so not alone. Especially since we live in a world that fosters anxiety and breeds the “keeping up with the Jones'” mentality. I’ve actually started going to counseling (not ashamed to say it cuase i think it’s one of the healthiest things I’ve done in a long time, for me and for my marriage)and I’m learning about how I try to play God and be everything to and for everybody. It’s in our nature to want to be needed and wanted and it’s easy to let people and things “try” to fill that void in us. All the while Christ is whispering sweet somethings in our ear, “how beautiful you are my darling…”. SJ, my prayer for you is that you would be satisfied in Christ and as we seek him first, that list of to do’s will be added. Love you girl.

    Comment by Kristal Yancie — September 2, 2009 @ 1:14 pm

  3. In addition to what Rhende said…it’s better to say no than to just string ppl along or not answer their phone calls…haha!

    But on a more encouraging less picking on you note:
    I’m hoping that you will feel less stressed and that you will not just have time to get what you need to get done but also that you will have time to rest and refresh. I love you very much and I know that you are very dedicated to people and it is admirable….even if you tell people no sometimes!!!

    Comment by Susie Mae — September 2, 2009 @ 1:14 pm

  4. Yes. All. The. Time. But reading this helped, I am not alone out here…

    Comment by The Blushing Hostess — September 2, 2009 @ 4:26 pm

  5. This summer has felt very filled with plans. I feel your pain. Btw, cute picture show. They said it all. lol

    Comment by Danielle — September 3, 2009 @ 8:57 pm


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